Jay is always telling me I can go out and do stuff. Go to the "mall" he says or go to mom and dads, or go hang out with Melanie. First the mall out here is boring. You can walk it in about 20 min. No stores I really like. Only about 2. And yeah sure it would be good to go once in a while but I'm not a big fan of going shopping without money. I know I know at least I'm getting out of the house. But whats the point if its not gonna be fun. I love my in-laws don't get my wrong but they live out in no mans land. I love it there I really do but after about 2 hours or so I am bored again. I'm not a big fan of doing yard work and if you ever saw my in-laws place you would know that its nothing but a big ball of yard work. They have everything. A Christmas tree farm, apple trees, cherry trees, plum trees, pumpkins, 2000 strawberry plants, a garden bigger then my apartment. Its crazy! But at the same time just amazing! But really thats all they have. I love hanging out with my mother in law but she has things she has to do during the day. My sister in law Melanie is great but she is a busy busy women! She has two kids, a dog, a cat, and chickens and a house to take care of during the day. I would be just one more hassle to her.
What about friends you may say. HAHAHA. That makes me laugh. I have no friends out here. Theres only one person that likes me and that Amiee and she busy to. She works from 3-12 and when shes not working she has 2 kids of her own to. She stops by when she can and calls me to hang out when she has free time. I love Amiee! The people from church sure as heck don't wanna hang out with me. Don't get me started on that subject. I think the east coast wards have some issues. Whatever though. I still go to church because I know its where I should be. I go and learn and then leave. I miss the days of being in a ward where I had friends.
I miss Taylorsville 39th ward. I miss Jessica and Katie and Jen. I miss my bestest girlfriend Becky!!!! I miss my parents! I miss my dog Bruno. I get to talk to him once in a while when my mom puts him on the phone. He doesn't ever talk back of course he just grunts and snorts. I wish I could have brought him with me to Canada. I miss my little brother Jamie. I miss going to Milford to hang out with the Reynolds. I miss having Sunday dinner with the Cottams. I miss working!!! I love to work. Even when I complain about it I still love it! I miss dry heat. I miss summer.
I miss a lot of things. But there is one thing I don't miss. I don't miss going to bed by myself. I don't miss only getting to talk to Jay on the phone. I don't miss the endless nights of stress and tears because I missed Jay more then anything I have ever missed before. Including the list above. So no matter how boring my life gets I am still grateful for it for one reason. I get to be with Jay everyday for the rest of my life!! Even when he drives me crazy and I just wanna scream I still love him. I must love him to give up all that have given up. I know one day I will have it all back as we plan on moving back to Utah. So for now I will just have to be bored out of my mind and be okay with if it means getting to be with Jay. I'm okay with that.